You can't ever give up a dream for a possible relationship. You have to have a mature conversation- maybe show her this post and explain the reasons why you've been wanting to do this, even before you met her. Do it now and apply for the visa now. Think about how you'll feel 10 years from now if you don't. Regrets are hot to live! with.
Hahahaha
They did test my fertility I think and I have a low sperm count
How on earth is this not a post about you dumping him? In what world is this okay?
He doesn’t love you.
Read that again.
HE. DOES. NOT. LOVE. YOU.
Leave.
You can't ever give up a dream for a possible relationship. You have to have a mature conversation- maybe show her this post and explain the reasons why you've been wanting to do this, even before you met her. Do it now and apply for the visa now. Think about how you'll feel 10 years from now if you don't. Regrets are hot to live! with.
If he’s unable to have a conversation about your relationship, he’s not ready for a relationship. Listen to your gut.