Hello I am sorry if this don’t seem sensible I’m still so cantankerous I feel like I can’t breathe but also so furious I want to scream this occurred Saturday and I still haven’t slept, I’m not prepared to tell my friends or family but I need to talk or vent or whatever.
I’m 36 and my husband is 37. We’ve been married for 14 yrs. 14 years is just a few years shy of being over fifty percent my life. It’s definitely most of my adult life. And today he’s just gone.
I had a brother within law, he was 33 when he died two years ago, leaving behind a expecting wife who was 27 during the time, 29 now. It was heartbreaking and she was devastated. I was so wrapped up in emotions then but when I look back more I see it happening so obviously I hate myself because of not seeing it. Every time Sammy would cry he’d go to comfort her. When the nephew was born he was the first one to hold your pet, the first one to say his name in order to him out loud. All things that will say the time seemed nice like he was having such good care of their brothers widow but now I know that it was more than that and every time she’d call him plus he’d go over they were building a relationship and it was correct in front of my face.
I want to throw up. And he is talking to me about getting “respectful”. How they won’t go public until after our own divorce is finalized. Great, so I can pretend he is not playing happy loved ones with his dead brothers wife while my marriage will get ripped apart by attorneys. He says he’ll let me have the house. Yeah, of course he will. Now that him and Sammy have the complete family acreage why wouldn’t he create a huge new house on it!! (he’s seriously doing this… I thought our marriage is fine, he was planning out when the ground was going to thaw so he could break floor on his new house). Personally i think like throwing up… Everything we did for Sammy, all the kindness we demonstrated her, and this is what the lady does.
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