First of all, I’m sorry for my bad English. I’ll try.
Last year has been really tough for me and my husband. When I was struggling giving a birth to our late son, my husband was given a choice if it’s me or my late son that needed to be saved. My husband chose me.
After that horrible experience, I develop mental health problem because I’m still grieving until today. My depression and anxiety level has completely affected my entire emotions. There’s a time that I don’t really talk with my husband the whole day and it comes to a point that he will just ignored me as well. I know that’s my fault.
But yesterday, while I was arranging the groceries that my husband bought, he suddenly barged into the kitchen and screamed at me “I f**** called you for like 4th times and you never answered. What’s wrong with you these days? If I knew this will happen, I should have chosen the baby instead of you.”
He looked me in the eyes, angrily and went out from the house. When he was only back to home this morning and never spoken anything with me. Although I did tried to initiate the communication because I feel really drained, empty and sad that I can’t do anything about it. And I do feel bad towards my husband.
Please help me, aita for having this sad thought everyday. I wish I can recover from this ??
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