I feel like I(27F) might have gotten raped by my boyfriend(28M), but I’m not sure?

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me (27F) and my bf(28M) have been together for 4 years, living together for 2. he's extravagant, naked shit entrepreneur and can be egoistical and emotional, but he's always been supportive of me and have always been by my side. no physical or sexual abuse during this time at all.

last night we got from my parents' house where we helped with renovations. every day was exhausting and we didn't have sex for a week. the drive home was 12h.

when we got home, sorry for TMI, we gave each other oral and went to sleep. I thought it was it. But i woke up a few hours later with him trying to penetrate me, my pj pants down to my knees. i told him no, i'm sleepy, let's do this in the morning, i don't feel well. he didn't respond and proceeded. i told him no again. he didn't react. so i just laid there and waited for it to stop. i didnt move or push him or scream or anything. he didn't kiss me or look at my face or do anything else except fuck the whole time. i felt like a sex doll.

now it's the morning and he acts like he's had the best sex. so affectionate and loving.

i don't feel like this. we never roleplayed with consent, every time i said no even if he got visually upset he would stop, but this time no.

what do i do now? am i going insane? my brain tells me i'm hyperfixating on something unimportant, but i'm on the verge of emotional breakdown over this. i've never had something like this happen before and i don't know. i don't want to talk to him about it, i feel like he'd downplay it.