What made you think she was going to be your first girlfriend? Subsequently, why do you believe it was your looks that were the problem? Did she tell you that?
Separately, do you generally pursue women you're attracted to or do you ask out literally any woman?
Does that elicit feelings of loneliness in your relationship? or does it deter your ability to have control of situations?
Keep in mind, if both people are type a communicators/plan makers it can lead to battles of the will/power struggles.
Anyway – good luck to you both!
What made you think she was going to be your first girlfriend? Subsequently, why do you believe it was your looks that were the problem? Did she tell you that?
Separately, do you generally pursue women you're attracted to or do you ask out literally any woman?
Did you talk to her about it?