The fiancée, Sara, and I were together for 3 years.
She’s actually my very first serious gf since center school. I will honestly acknowledge I’ve been a complete bit of shit with women for the majority of of my teens and 20s and pretty much utilized women. I’m saying all of this to explain how promiscuous I had been in the past.
Sara knows about my past and she’s produced to accept it. We fulfilled at work and she hated myself because she saw right through me and after pursuing her for close to a year she finally agreed to a date as well as the rest is history. We’ve been living together for just two years now and I have grown incredibly close to her parents too and she also loves my family. Past 3 years have been the best of my entire life and I’m so capable to spend the rest of my life with her.
This weekend her cousin and the girl family are in town. She’s really close with her cousin Lauren (miracle We haven’t met her yet, I was always busy for just one reason or another the couple of times she’s visited within the last 3 years). So I finally met Lauren and her husband for dinner at Sara’s parents place. She instantly stares at me a bit wide eyed and I can’t help but think the lady looks familiar. We’re all of being introduced to each other and Lauren for the most part seems to be performing normally but she’s still staring at me whenever the girl can. Sara’s parents after that come in with Lauren’s little boy who’s 5yrs outdated.
I’m looking at this kid and Lauren as well as the only thing I can think about is that this boy seems like a carbon copy associated with me at his age group with some Lauren mixed within. I’m suddenly starting to remember that I took Lauren home from a bar close to 6 years ago. And I also remember persuading her to not use security after I showed her the blood work. I’m just a sweaty nervous mess for the rest of dinner and I think Lauren realizes from how she looked at me and the boy that will maybe I realized too. And an even more fucked up part, I think Lauren was visiting Sara the weekend I took her house. They probably had a girls night out that weekend using their friends and I took Lauren home. So Sara had been probably at the same bar that night.
Sara requested me if I was ok and just told her I wasn’t feeling well. I didn’t go to work yesterday now and just took sick times. Idk what the fuck to try and do. Lauren obviously isn’t saying anything. I have no idea if she was wedded at the time and I don’t wish to ask Sara because I don’t want her getting dubious about me asking. Really dont even know how I feel regarding possibly being a father (I’m 95% sure this child is mine, looked NOTHING like the husband).
Should i just shut up? We never cheated on Sara obviously but she knows how much of a player I was and it took her a while to get past my quantity. I don’t know how she’d react if she knows I actually knocked up her aunty years before knowing her. This is vain and shallow about Sara and I really like her to death yet she absolutely hates in case something is considered “trashy” or even “low class”. I honestly think it’s possible she’d leave me if I pulled up her cousin. I can’t lose her, she’s literally the best thing that’s actually happened to me.
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