I found out on Thursday that my boyfriend of two years was cheating on me for months with one of my childhood (EX) best friends (20F) and it has completely and utterly wrecked me. In all honestly I don't know if I'll ever be able to recover from this, I loved and trusted him so much, our relationship was literally perfect, and he had the nerve to cheat on me after telling me daily how he's "never loved anyone as much" as me.
I could barely even talk because I was out of breath from crying so much when I tried my best to formulate a coherent sentence and ask him why he would do this to me, he simply responded by saying "I can choose who has access to my body". What?? This has mentally f*cked me up, and I still can't comprehend this situation. He texted me today that this "doesn't have to end our relationship" and some paragraph asking me "why" do I "care?" when "it's his body" and not mine. I tried to explain to him that I valued him being faithful to me as a fundamental part of our relationship and not sharing his body with anyone else, as I would be faithful to him. Also, we never agreed to be poly or anything.
He now says that he "understands" how much I "value his physical body" (I never said that) and will be "fully aware" of that going forward in our relationship. I honestly don't think I can give him another chance though, I literally thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with him, but after what he has done that's all out of the window. It's just tough, because I can think back about how I never loved or cared about my ex-boyfriends to the level that I do him, and it almost feels like I still do love him, even after he has completely violated me.
Are there any reasonable ways that I can go about this from here?
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