UPDATE to My (26f) best friend (26m) and my fiancé (27m) got into a physical altercation, they’re not on speaking terms, fiancé won’t tell me what it was all about and best friend asked me not to talk to him ever again.

I stayed over my female friend's place last night and made it clear to my fiancé we're done unless he tells me what happened. He finally did.

My (ex) friend is in the process of moving from an apartment to a house. That day, my fiancé was helping him move. I couldn't be there because of work. During the process, fiancé stumbled upon three thick notebooks. He thought it's some college stuff, but soon realized that the notebooks contain my friend's sexual fantasies in regard to me. I wish my fiancé was making it all up, but he has the notebooks and I have read / seen them – the first entry is from high school, the most recent one from around two weeks ago. I have no doubt my friend wrote them (it is 100 % his handwriting).

Fiancé confronted friend about it, friend admitted feelings for me, and suggested – jokingly – that since everything is out in the open now then fiancé surely won't mind sharing me with him…and that's when my fiancé lost it. He hurt him pretty bad (he's okay though), friend agreed to stay away from me / us, but threatened to report fiancé to the police if he tells me the truth.

I believe my fiancé. Plus the notebooks. I have no intention of contacting my friend ever again. For context, we had a little thing in high school. He was the first boy I kissed. But to me, he was just a crush that I got over quite fast. Ever since high school, I genuinely treated him just as a friend and I thought he saw me only as a friend too. Him and I never slept together or did anything shady. The first and only guy I ever had sex with was my now fiancé. And my friend dated lots of women throughout the years, he has quite the fuck boy reputation. He can have any girl he wants, so idk why he's so hung up on me.

So that's that. I feel really sad, but I don't think my (ex) friend and I can move forward from this. I wish he told me how he felt. I still would have chosen my fiancé over him and I would have distanced myself from him, but maybe it wouldn't hurt as much as it hurts now…I hope that he'll eventually find someone he truly love.