I' m a little in shock at how many comments my post got. I actually couldn' t read all of them because there was so much, but to all the people who said kind words, thank you. I wanted to edit the article to give an update however it was deleted, so I' ll just write the post here as a reaction.
Again, thank you to everybody who was kind. It' s i9000 really helped me wrap my brain around the fact that the girl really did abuse me, and the extent of which We can' t even begin to understand. Years together, and he or she manipulated me and coerced me, and had raped myself… it doesn' t really feel real, and I feel unwell, and I can' t manage it. I really need therapy.
As for her, I had not seen or spoken to her since making the publish. I packed my luggage and left, making our way to my sister' ersus and brother in laws. They don' t understand she' s pregnant, and I don' t know in case I' ll tell them, yet they' ve been keeping me safe and caring for me, so for now I' m safe.
The only get in touch with I' ve had with her was a brief text telling her it was over. She' s tried to call me plenty of times and getting our mutuals to get to me. I' m going to obtain a new number and telephone so none of them can contact me. It' s more than, I have to move on.
I' m not going to try and coerce or force her to get an abortion, that seems since evil as her coercing and forcing me to obtain her pregnant. I feel really bad for the kid when it' s born, I don' t even know basically want to be in their life or co-parent with her, I really, really, really don' t understand what to do, but I at least have eight months to find that out.
I know individuals are telling me to talk to the particular cops, and talk to a lawyer but I can' t. I doubt they' ll believe me and you will find absolutely no laws to protect me where I on-line. I' m in no way emotionally capable to talk or think about her or what she did to me. I just want to stick with my sister and brother in law and try to proceed and make a new existence for myself. I have time to figure things out, and for now, I just need area to heal and procedure these past few years and the fact that she was abusing me the entire time.
I actually trusted her so much because she was like me. The two of us came from abusive homes, together rough childhoods… she informed me she wanted to be pregnant to be able to have a new lifestyle and family… I don' t know what to make of the. I don' t understand what to think of her, other than detest her.
For now I' meters safe, and I' meters self employed so I can stick with my sister and care for myself. For now I' m saving up for a new cell phone, and to look for a therapist. Whenever I' m ready I might pursue legal action. Yet I don' t wish to. I want to move on. I want to begin my life over without her.
I' m really i am sorry for the kid, I desire I could have been a father with a woman who wasn' t her and exactly who didn' t rape me personally. I don' t understand if I could ever enjoy you, I hope when you' re an adult you' lmost all understand.
Thank you for everyone' ersus support. I' m secure, I think I' ll be okay.
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